I am a Child.

Clever title since I will be reflecting on my 3 day mirror fast. Heh.

So here are my findings.

I accidentally saw my reflection a few times  (mainly on the first day), but not anything intentional or for more than a spilt second. With that said, it was freaking weird not seeing myself for that long. It’s not a vain issue or anything. I just honestly felt weird. I kind of lost a sense of myself, but in the losing of myself, I found another part of me I hadn’t known before.

At first I was still slightly concerned with how I looked, even though I had no clue. But the second and third day, I had no clue and didn’t worry about it. With my ability to be unfocused on myself, I had more brain space to focus on my communication with others. I know this may seem silly. But the fact that I couldn’t change my appearance helped me to see myself much simpler. 

I saw myself as the Son of Abba I know that I am, but forget sometimes. 

This experiment/fast didn’t go how I expected, but it went exactly how I wanted.

I encourage everyone to at least try this at some point in the future. Fast from….yourself, your self image, your view of yourself. It will help you see yourself a little truer. 

I promise I will blog my results from my “Mirror” project tomorrow. I mean it. And more thoughts to come as well. I’m thinking about doing occasional album reviews as well. Just because. That’s all for now.

This is a lot harder than I thought. 

Starting Monday, I am going to live three days of my life without looking at myself. We all look at ourselves in the mirror before leaving our room or leaving the restroom. We even stop for a moment to fix our hair when we see our reflection in the glass doors we walk through from time to time. 

I’m not saying this is bad. It’s natural to want to look presentable, nice, even beautiful/handsome. God created us all beautifully, and we try to live up to that standard. Know right now that no matter how beautiful or ugly you think you are, you are beautiful.

Aside from that, I am curious as to how I will perceive myself when I don’t even see my reflection for a few days. Will I forget how I look? Will I be more free from feeling inadequate? Or will I see everyone around me as more beautiful because I am so unfocused on what I look like. 

I just think it will be interesting and enlightening to not even look at myself for 3 days. Will I see myself more like how Christ sees me? I will document my discoveries after Wednesday. I will avoid seeing my reflection in any form or fashion for 72 hours. It’s going to be harder than I think. I see my reflection a ton everyday. 

Here. We. Go.

I want to cry really bad. I think I would feel much better if I did. 

But I can’t. 

…it’s frustrating.